I wish I could say that now I’ve found something that makes me feel like me, like I am where I’m supposed to be because I feel complete when I can be creative, I could just sit back, have fun and do what I love as a living in a glamorous world. Well…that’s far from the truth. I used to naively think that it’s all fun and games. In the real world, no job is really that perfect. Every job has its difficulties and challenges. Even singers, actors, photographers, stylists and makeup artists have their challenges too. But personally, my toughest challenge has been trying to hold onto a positive attitude in such a “doggy dog” industry (Yes friends, I now know it’s supposed to be dog-eat-dog) and holding onto who I am through all the ups and downs of my job and constantly being surrounded by everything that shouts “Appearance is everything”.
Of course, I know that appearance is not everything. It’s supposed to be something fun. A treat that helps you get through your everyday life that’s not always smooth going. It’s supposed to be a pass to our creativity and artistic abilities. Makeup, photography, styling. We all create art every day unknowingly. When you take a picture you know what looks good to you. When you select your outfits you know exactly what top goes with your jeans. When you apply your peach blusher you unconsciously know that you picked it because it makes you look younger and happier. Saying that, sometimes it’s hard to remember that makeup and fashion is art, not a necessity that makes us lose our confidence and true beauty when we are without.
Being surrounded by everything beautiful on the outside constantly has been a struggle. Sometimes I get scared that if I remain in this industry long enough, it might get ingrained in me that you must be beautiful on the outside to be worth something. But this is what I was born to do – be creative! And the thing is, it helps, especially, when I have an understanding family, an amazingly supportive boyfriend like no other, and wonderful friends who remind me what beauty truely is by just being who they are! Even when they sit around with their greasy hair complaining about how “fat” they are whilst munching on the fattiest piece of chicken. Beautiful! : )
So let’s all remember, we can live and breathe style, but don’t let it be our support machine!
(P.S. Thanks to Jenna, Banh Bao and a secret someone for sitting around long enough when I was trying to pass the trial for London Fashion Week! You are why I made it : P)